Monday, June 11, 2012

Wonderful Weeds



My niece said, 
"Auntie, you can't do that, you're breaking the rules!"
To which I said, 
"Yes I can, it's not illegal & will not conflict with my value system."
"BUT...Auntie!"
"But, what?"
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"fine."

And then that awkward silence between us because I prevailed over another disagreement & she couldn't end it with, "whatever".
I said,
"You know Sweetie...not all rules are what you think they are..."
"What's that suppose to mean?!" 
she quips snappishly in her humbling defeat.
"Well...for starters, when you express in the public park, 
"Don't pick the flowers! That's stealing!"
I say, 
"the flowers are there because my tax dollars are hard at work beautifying my community. So therefore, these flowers have been well thought out regarding their destination in this park by the many fine men & women whom work for our city to make such difficult decisions for their fellow citizens. And since the decision was made to plant these absolutely beautiful flowers here, in this very spot for me, a citizen of this community, to enjoy, I choose to enjoy them by picking one to give to you with love from my heart & the blessing from the city council, as to beautify your day. And it will leave you with a wondeful heart-filled memory of you & me in this park on a glorious day in June, when your nearing your 14th birthday! These are the moments I must seize, as you are growing so fast & someday will be so busy with your own life & all I will have in my lonely old days as an Auntie, are memories like these. Memories of me picking flowers for my beautiful niece whom I love so much!"

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"Well then, why don't you pick the weeds?"
"Oh but I do my dear Miss. It is what you hold in your hand. It is not a flower, it is actually considered a weed. Not all things of beauty are as they appear. And here you thought this a flower, when it's really a weed."
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"oh, whatever Auntie..."

I just laughed as I summated the whole hysterical event with--

" And so criticized each flower,
The supercilious seed;
Until it woke one summer hour,
And found itself a weed."

-Mildred Howells, The Different Seed
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"I love you sweetie !"
"I love you too Auntie..."



Trying to Breathe



Being creative is the collision of inspiration, motivation, experience, influence & mood altering chemicals; whether that be organic, synthetic or combination.


I hit this wall today...and couldn't see a thing.
Everything I thought I was looking at didn't make any sense.
So I closed my eyes and just decided to breathe...


b     r     e     a     t     h     e


Enter clarity. It's that conscious place you go when you breathe out all that is stimulating your body, mind & soul. Clarity is a clean slate. It is here that the perspective has changed. It is here where you see what you were seeking. Difficult to maintain, though blissful once you are there-- in the consciousness of serenity. It is where I go when my everyday takes over.


And when life's reality smacks you down hard, I can usually ask George what he'd have to say;




George has a straight line shot at how he took in life. Doesn't that point of breathing come at the end of what he says?..."We've added years to life, not life to years."


His breathing took the form of loud & vulgar & things that made you go hhhmmmm. But either way he knew how to breathe & release his clarity.


Fucking-A right-on man!! (more laughing)...and breathing of course...