Friday, November 29, 2013

Through This Light I Am Committed


She took aim.
Focused.
Framed.
Committed.
Clear in her course.
Her muscles fibrillated.
Mind racing.
Heart pounding.
She began to sweat!
Her back foot slid a bit.
it distracted her.
Flinch.
Shallow breath.
Mouth watering.
Lips Dry
The silence became deafening.
The ringing louder.
A flush moved up her chest.
She warmed,
exhaling the suffering with her breath.
She stopped with her last release of breath,
her finger pointing,
And drew it back on herself.
In a slightly broken curl,
she slowly drew her finger
to her fist & directed all
the light into her.
All that she was.
All that moment brought.
Then to now.
All that she is to become.
All that she ever denied herself.
She pointed to 
the soul that requested
this point of light.
Committed.

She gasped for air
A long, 
drawn out,
 laborious cleansing,
into her lungs
The energy,
The light,
Her angels,
Her guardians,
Her cords,
RUSHED to her.
Around her.
Into her.
Through her.
And through the back door.

She held up her hand,
The light was so bright...
What was she looking at?

silence in her first breath.

A piercing white space.

Crisp.

Pure.
Gone are the rationalizations,
validations,
Contempt from actions.
Gone are the 
excuses,
distortions,
the reasons why 
I never gave myself,
Worth,
A chance,
Courage,
LOVE.

GONE
were the voices,
berating's,
undermining,
and shame
The cant's
don'ts
won'ts
how could you's!

It was washed with acceptance.
With love.
With the hearts voice of
I was,
I am,
I will be.
It is the new foundation
to my inner creative. 
My complete separation
from what was theirs,
not mine.
Though I gave it ownership.
What they expected,
and demanded.

To simply
express,
feel,
pound out!
Define.
Push through
the shroud of
them.
To reveal 
me.

Immersed
in my vibrant light
only I can see.
The presence in,
and joy of,
there's only one me.
A great creation
designed 
to share.
Give.
INSPIRE!
Believe
and be humbled
by the energies 
around me.

My way
was not clear
as in a direction or a path.
It was a way of existing.

Though now,
through
doing.
Of being.
Of living.
Of loving.
Of expressing.
Of sharing.

Of being,
present.

I opened myself up
and willingly received
the grace of the energy
demanding to move through me.
It was through this light,
I finally did see.
That I am a gift,
may the world embrace me.

Through this light I am committed,
For this is the clarity
of who I am to now.
 To Be ME.
A gift for the world by 

simply being me.

Image By Ladyp Enrhyn
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